Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Breathe {inspiration for wednesdays}

Looking out my window at this very wet, gray September day, I wonder what my fingers will conspire to write with my keyboard. My mind is full of thoughts - but some are still just fragments or pieces and are not ready to come out in the open yet. My house is quiet...kiddos are at school...cup of tea in hand...a sense of deep gratitude for the life I've been given.

It is not some grand, amazing life but rather one filled with lots of mundane moments and tasks. I have laundry that is calling to me from upstairs, dishes to put away, emails to write, exercise to do, pictures to edit...real "down to earth" moments. But are these not the moments, strung together, that make up LIFE?

I don't know if you are anything like me, but sometimes I am waiting (hoping) for the next big thing to come along. Something exciting. Something impactful. Something WOW!! But while I am waiting for these occasions I am missing the very life that is going on in front of me. Feeling the warmth of the water in the kitchen sink as I wash dishes, entering into the goofiness of my children, enjoying the color of the outside world when it rains, delighting in the taste, textures, flavors and smells of good food put in front of me. When I am too focused on what might happen in the future, I miss the splendid moments of right now.

I am trying...and let me paint a picture for you of what "trying" is: it is the 16 year old, eager to get behind the wheel, learning to drive a stick shift. Fits and starts; stalling and going; altogether a very jerky ride!! I am trying to live in such a way as to enter into the unfolding of the events of the moment. To live (as the poet puts it):

"Caretake this moment. Immerse yourself in its particulars. Respond to this person, this challenge, this deed. Quit the evasions. Stop giving yourself needless trouble. It is time to really live; to fully inhabit the situation you happen to be in now." -Epictetus

(But is much easier to write it than to live it!! Just like it is much easier to conceptualize driving a stick shift than it is to actually get in the car and make it happen!!)

**On a totally different note, here are three different web articles I have totally enjoyed this week:
(I warn you that the above link is hard to read!! But since I have a family member living the experience right now, I thought maybe someone else might benefit from it too!!)

Breathe, smile and go slowly!!


Bethany said...

Oh, Tara, I so needed this reminder to live in the moment and accept and even rejoice in the mundane. Thank you for sharing this post and that quote. Love you, friend!

Erin McFarland said...

Tara, just wanted to let you know "i get you" :) So thankful for that and your thoughts on life!