Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Breathe {inspiration for Wednesdays}

Blame it on the fact that I am a "word" girl.  I love words...and think the world and cultures are made up of words!  But I love it the most when a good writer will string together words like delicate pearls on a necklace -  conveying meaning for sure, but also beauty, and totally befitting to wear upon your soul!  I collect quotes...I have scraps of paper here and there on my desk and in my books with some poetic insight scrawled upon them.  Sometimes, when I am reading a particularly great book, I need to read the sentences out loud, even if I am alone, because to keep them silent and trapped in the pages seems almost a tragedy.

For this "wordy" reason, as I come to the turn of a year, I most often do not make resolutions, but spend a handful of quiet moments over the course of a few days and try to listen for the word or words that emerge from the depths of my heart.  I wait for a verb to dance its way up from my depths and then test it to see how it resonates with my mind and what I see around me.  From this comes my New Year's "Resolution" - or rather my word for the coming year.  

This year, my word is ENGAGE.  Its first meaning is"to occupy oneself; become involved".  Seems simple right?  But I think it is the word that sprang up from within me because I have noticed this last year of how much I much in certain situations I do not give my entire self to people or the situation at hand.  Sometimes it happens because I am trying to only half-live by "multi-tasking", and sometimes because I deem the difficulty level to be too much.

Either way, I stop engaging the moment at hand and drop into some form of hiding or ease.  I can feel myself do it at the end of an intense workout where I just quit instead of pushing through the toughest part; I can feel myself do it when I don't "stay in" a conversation long enough to fully understand the other person.  I finish their story for them, make assumptions and disconnect.

The word ENGAGE calls me out of those habits and into a place where I fully show up to whatever situation is at hand.  ENGAGE tells me..."wherever you are, be ALL there" and to "immerse myself in the particulars" of the moment.

Choosing a word for the year gives me the umbrella under which I can walk through the next 365 days; choosing a verb gives me an action to "engage" in with any and every circumstance.  And choosing a verb also helps give breath to how I want to feel in all areas of my life this year.  This year...I choose to ENGAGE.

What is your word for this year?

Breathe, smile and go slowly.

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